Cold pillow...

My husband and I have been together a little over 4 years. In all that time I can count on one hand how many times I've slept alone. Twice since we've been together he had to go out of town to work for the apartment complex he works for and once I went on a trip to Nashville with my best friend Raye. That was it. Two nights each.
Well, consider tonight the next time. We are going out of town this weekend for the New year down to our family house at Lake Barkley. Bob decided it would be nice, since he is off tomorrow and I am not, to take the older boys down early so they could have some bonding time and ride he new four wheeler without "us" in the way. It sounded like a great idea to me. Until now. I have gotten to the point where I realize I'll be sleeping alone. His cold pillow next to mine. We are the couple who sleeps touching. Whether it been spooning or tangled legs. There is always contact. Im going to miss that tonight.
My youngest son Josh is here. And I called my sister and asked if Alex could stay the night with him. The older boys even took my dog Daisy so I dont have her here to cuddle and warn me of intruders. Yes, Im one of those paranoid people who always hear something. I had asked my sister to keep my youngest Josh tomorrow while I work and she said of course like I knew  she would. But then she asked if it wouldnt be easier for the boys, Josh and Alex, to just sleep at her house. Heck No! I don't want to sleep in this house alone. I'd be up all night hearing sounds. I know that Josh and Alex are only 9 and most likely won't save me from any intruder. But their presence will help me from concentrating on that intruder. Or potential intruder.
So even though my bed will be cold and empty. My house will at least be filled with little boys playing video games all hours of the night. If that doesnt scare away any potential intruder I dont know what will.
Well, I'm going to start reading now. Hoping to make myself tired enough to be able to sleep tonight. Alone.
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